Let’s imagine a person, somehow young with all of his or her life ahead. Now let’s imagine this person is doing only one thing every day — he waits for something to happen, but he’s not put any effort into it. Why? Because the darkness consumes his mind.
You know the feeling. You believe within your fiber or soul that you were put on this Earth to do something. But you keep playing it in your head, and the sense of failure becomes more and more plausible.
What is this dark, nobody asks?
Let’s talk for a second about what darkness means. It’s a shadow above your thinking keep saying to you you’re not worth it, you’ll become nothing. And above all, it is telling you one of the worst sentences anybody could hear:
I’ll do it tomorrow
Let me spare your time — you will not do it tomorrow. Or the day after, or any other day for the rest of your life.
Why? Because the darkness is keeping you from obtaining anything you put your mind to.
The only way to escape the darkness is simple and, I tell you; it drives it crazy when you do it.
“Hope begins in the dark, the stubborn hope that if you just show up and try to do the right thing, the dawn will come. You wait and watch and work: you don’t give up.”
― Anne Lamott
Your biggest enemy is your mind
Deep in your soul, you know you have to do something about your life and you have to do it better.
Your mind is your biggest enemy.
Because that’s what you keep telling yourself. You don’t have a day when you’re not doubting yourself. And that’s where the dark is coming.
For a long time, I could not do too much in my life. I preferred the coziness of my bed, in contrast, to get up and live a life like other people. I kept abandoning myself and my dreams because I felt is too much of a job to do so.
Your life transforms into a downward, downfall spiral of pity, laziness, and make excuses.
You feel every day the darkness is taking control of your life.
But there is a way to get out of it. It took me a long time to find it, but the best part is that you don’t have to move mountains to achieve it.
You just need to do little things every day and that way the darkness will leave you alone.
Keep it simple and effective
Write how you feel on a specific day and what is the cause. Reread it from time to time. You’ll be surprised how many things that ruin that day don’t even seem important right now.
Often you let your feelings take control of your life, and not your mind. And feeling, well, do what they are intended to do.
By keeping a journal you can check your feelings from time to time and eventually you’ll realize that maybe sometimes you overreact. That’s the darkness talking, not your personality.
Escaping darkness is difficult, but is not impossible either. Along with the practical changes that you can take, you will need to shift the way of thinking.
Your primary goal is to take that ‘I’ll do it tomorrow’ and get rid of it.
That thinking is the worst kind of thinking that you can have because your entire life will be tomorrow while you will be today.
It has terrified me to push that publish button on Medium for weeks. I was saying, `I’ll do it tomorrow’ and see another season of a series in a day. But one day after 4 episodes in a row I stand up, go to my laptop and publish.
It was an extraordinary feeling I didn’t feel for a long time that I almost forgot how good it was. And that was it.
I publish it and my entire life didn’t collapse, nor did some troll burst into my house to drag me into his cave.
It was simple but efficient.
You can make a simple change today that requires a small amount of energy and time, but that can have a tremendous effect on your life.